I didn't know I had miscarried!!!!

[Elbee]

Ok here goes... Christmas Eve my husband and I got to see our baby for the first time, bouncy about, strong heart beat, 37mm long and 10wks 4 days old. We were told it was too early for the downs syndrome test and we needed to return for a sexond scan in 2 weeks time, we were over joyed at the opportunity to see our little bean again.
Scan date was Wednesday and no heart beat!!!!! It was laying/ face planted, not moving it was an image I am struggling to forget. It seems it must have died a couple of days after first scan.
I had an ERPC on Friday evening and feel like my feet havent touched the ground since I walked into the scanning unit on wednesday.
I had no idea i had miscarried. No blood, slight cramping which I did ask midwife about who said not to worry, all blood tests came back fine, boobs still hurt, still felt nausea,
The only couple of things on reflection was how much energy i felt i now had And the other was i was able to drink tea but I put these down to heading towards 2nd trimester!
So the biggest shock for both of us, numb/stunned/angry/ lost/ uncertainity and the big question What happened to my baby in those few days after christmas eve?????????
I am currently laying in bed as have been in considerable pain all night and now I am trying to do something productive with my time.
I am worried how I am going to feel when the pain stops as at the moment this is giving me something to think about and plan for - pain killers ibuprofen and paracetamol every 2 hours, sanitary towels and online food orders with lots of iron rich foods. Work has suggested i have some time off to adjust. I just dont want to get into a dark place so am worried if i dont keep myself busy that will happen.

[mummysarah+co]

I'm so sorry for your loss Miscarriage takes a lot out of you physically and emotionally so it may be worth taking the time off to rest up. Keep on top of the pain relief and take care of yourself

[Tarrie]

So sorry for your loss hun

xxx

[Missbx]

sorry for your loss xx

[OneWomanNation]

So sorry for you loss xx

[Tink11]

So sorry for your loss something very similar happened to me in July this year. MMC are so so cruel. Take it slowly and give yourself time. Im now pregnant again, its been hard as I couldnt relax throught he first trimester but it does get easier.

Chatting to ladies on here who had experienced similar things really helped me. Feel free to pm me if you'd like

xx

[Elbee]

It's been 18 days since I started this thread. I would love to say I'm feeling back to life. But I'm really not. feel like i have been on the phone daily to the hospital as I began bleeding again this week and passed a blood clot. Went back to work last Monday, possibly too early but needed distraction. I think realisation of what has happened is finally hitting home. I am normally and ultra organised person and a complete control freak so suddenly find myself thinking of things we now won't be doing / won't need to do / maybe can now do as am no longer pregnant. Still finding the fact that we saw baby all ok on scan quite hard to deal with.

[Lisa chap]

I had a mmc in feb 2011 and I found myself in a dark place for at least 6 months after so give yourself time to grieve. I kept myself busy but it still caught up with me, I decided to write a diary of my feelings, anger, frustration, heart ache, every day was different but equally as difficult to get through. It's something I will never forget but I have learnt to live with. Every time I read a thread like yours my heart breaks, life can be very cruel. Big hugs to you sweetie, your not alone xx

[Élodie]

[Elbee]

Hi all is it still ok to be spotting?????

[Elbee]

The last few days i have begun to feel more like the old me and I also got my period yesterday which is 28 days after ERPC!!! So hopefully body is getting back to normal. However did pee on a clear blue pregnancy stick to confirm this only to find a feint vertical line, which did upset me as I have read that no chance of ovulating if levels of HCG have not returned to normal.

[Elbee]

So maybe not back to normal yet?!?!?

[ReturnOfThePickle]

I didn't get my period until my HCG levels had returned to normal. Might be worth ringing EPAU if you are bleeding and still getting a positive result. So very sorry for your loss xx

[Élodie]

I'm sorry that you are still getting the bitter sweet memories of your baby through BFPs. I had this as well. It was almost 2 months of stress and going back and forth to EPU before I was given the all clear and the tests turned negative.

It is important that you make sure all retained products have gone. Its awful to have to go through with this especially after the trauma of losing your baby, but its for the best and means that you will be back TTC with a higher chance of falling pregnant again quicker. I never had to go through a D&C just some pessaries which made my womb contact and expelled the remaining tissue. It was just like a tummy cramp around AF.

Hopefully you won't need to go through with any medical management but keep checking with the tests because if you have retained products for too long it can cause an infection too. It doesn't always come away with AF I was told.

Massive hugs to you.

[Elbee]

Thanks girls for the support, at home recovering from 2nd ERPC (2 in almost a month!! ) doctors found left over infected tissue. Hopefully all on the mend now.