I've been holding off writing this for a while I've touched upon it in my diary but it's really starting to upset me now. I'm not bonding with this baby. Although I'm so pleased he's a healthy little boy I finding myself forgetting I'm pregnant daily. I bonded straight away with my girls so I feel so guilty that I don't love this baby yet but I'm not sure if it's because of what happened to Molly or not.
I keep thinking once I start buying clothes or once I start feeling kicks I might start to feel closer to him but I don't think I will. I just have an awful feeling this baby isn't going to be born alive.